Wishing You Near

I have come to realize that time is so dear
When you are no longer here
I cling to memories, sweet bitter memories
That brings you near
If only I can touch you again
Without bringing back the pain
Feeling your presence
That you are not really very far away
That would bring back the joy and magic
Of being again together
I know you are just a whisper away.

Showering you on our last day together (in this lifetime). I think back to this often. You were screaming with joy, I was singing to you, and washing your hair. I was worried you would wriggle out of your shower chair from excitement. I told you I loved you whenever we were together. I told you mum loved you, dad too. Now, I whisper a million thankyous for your wisdom and encouragment. Constant as the sun, you are my inspiration. I live to hear your whispers in every breeze that brushes my face and every note on the tip of my fingers. I love you, little sister. God Bless.

My last summer with you in the pool was always an opportunity to have a cuddle with a very tall girl and being a short mum it was lovely.  A friend had made your swimmers so that you could look 'cool' and trendy.  You loved the water on hot summer days and so we struggled to get you into the pool safely as you grew.  I had so many schemes to get you to that water when I could no longer lift you by myself.  But it was worth all of that.  All of that for you my lovely one. I miss you.